But surgery is a trauma in and of itself, and once it's over, the real healing begins. It's called recovery. Recovery is not a team sport. It's a solitary distance run. It's long. It's exhausting. And it's lonely as hell.
Decisions, decisions, decisions, fucking decisions. Well i guess i wanna change. I overanalyzed the hole situation and the thing is that i do have a way too complicated mind and when it comes down to making a decision, and i'm not talking about decisions like "soooo what should i wear today?" or stuff like that, when i say decisions i'm talking about things that will affect my life one way or another, more or less. And when that kind of decision has to be made i start asking myself questions like " what if?", " but if i'm wrong?", " how can i be sure it's like that?" and so on. And it's not ok, not at all because sometimes you have to quit thinking so much because if it feels right, it probably is. I do want to be a nice person and sometimes being nice to the people you don't necessarily like isn't called two faced, it's called growing up. I do want to learn and i do wanna appreciate what i have and i do wanna respect people more and stop considering them a bunch of assholes until they prove me wrong because once in a while there are people that deserve more, and that wouldn't be fair, right? But that doesn't mean i won't make any mistakes, and from time to time say something stupid or act stupid and screw things up. I think that if i remind myself how things used to be before i started acting and then almost ending up a totally cold heartless bitch that couldn't be changed ,maybe once in a while it will be pretty usefull to do that. Because out there, there are people that do need someone to help them,or listen to them and maybe it's ok if they know you are there for them and they can count on you anytime. I can do that, i do it most of the time but the question is, can you? If I were to give one piece of advice that would be stop overthinking everything people! At the end of the day you can either focus on what's tearing you apart or whats holding you together. And remember never invite someone into your head if you don't intend to let them stay. Despite the fact that it's raining cats and dogs, as my teacher would say, the wheather was fucked up all day and it annoys me, not all the time, but today made me feel tired. So anyway sometimes change is good, really change is everything. We have to change this thing: we say that we live our lives to the fullest but that's not like that we postpone a lot of things that we have to do and say until there will be no tomorrow. People will tell you they care, but they don't seem to show it unless you get sick, die or become famous. I don't agree with it 100% but sometimes depending on the people and the situation it's pretty much true.
Fuck NEVERLAND let's not come back until FOREVER ends.
No one needs a smile as much as a person who fails to give one. now how about showing me a big SMILE
Be strong,and you'll finally see the truth: that a hero lies in you. Well it sounds funny but it's true because when it comes down to helping the people we care about we are able to move mountains and even give up our own happiness just to see them smiling. I know what i'm talking about and when you realize that you are able to put someone else's happiness in front of yours, well that's a hell of a moment that makes your day(s) because that's the thing that proves you care about that someone else instead of you- no more "self-centreism".
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
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